Day 78 ~

Someone asked me why I write this, and especially if generally for no one in particular. I even seriously said I wasn't going to write any more since I can't and don't reference any of the knowledge I write about. But then I realized it's simply a positive energy I'm putting out in cyberspace, and I will continue.

I believe a change in all of mankind's understanding of who we all are is beginning to shift back to where it was thousands of years ago: believing in the wisdom within our amazingly intelligent heart and placing far less importance on identifying who we are with our thoughts.

Believe it or not, awareness with our heart comes to us silently, and awareness with our thinking mind is what "talks" to us in thought. The difference between these two awareness-es is huge, yet essential to understand as mankind attempts to accept the reality we have around us.

Yet I've spoken so much about being observant, and that takes our senses, which are then proscessed with our minds, which proves how intertwined and complicated it really is if we try to break it down. The more we're aware of the outside world, the closer we come to understanding the inside world.

Well, what is the inside world? Our emotions, our instincts, our deepest desires for giving and receiving unconditional love, and survival. I believe any of us would agree on this, because we don't need to think about it; we just know on a gut level. Isn't that right? 

But then our thoughts are going to start, and there is a part of us that's "listening"; what is that part of us?

Our spirit? I'd say yes since spirit doesn't exactly have form. Energy doesn't have form, in this sense, either. Could you possibly begin to accept our spirit is therefore the infinitely intelligent energy within us? I innately agree our heart muscle with all it's intricacies does house, if you will, this mystical, magical energy of all of creation.

This is NOT religion. Religion is mankind's creation for understanding something unfathomable. Religions speak truth at the core, yet I resist those that take away man's responsibilities for himself, and lead people to believe their greatest connection to "the divine" is in church. Hogwash!

The responsibility to awaken to who we are begins right here, right now. The sooner you accept mankind has energetically, as a whole, gotten us to exactly the place in our evolution that we are. It's up to us individually, which affects the whole, to save us from our own destruction and unhappiness.

Awareness is Curative. Awareness of seeing ourselves reflected by others we encounter is essential to realizing the law of attraction, which is essential to an understanding of who we are. When we acknowledge who and what we are, an entirely different outlook on our life on earth tends to shift towards a real deeper sense of happiness.

Enough ~

Always ~ LL

Day 71 ~

Being consciously aware of little simple things (a smell, a sound, a sight, a taste, feelings) that bring us pleasure or goodness in any way do have profound positive affects on our well-being. So if you don't have the time or inkling to read all there is to know, just know awareness is major!

It's a part of being aware of our-selves on a deeper level. Simply being conscious of your appreciation for that moment is a huge start. The more and more we're conscious of the brief moments of goodness, the more they're going to be attracted to us. 

As we begin to realize the law of attraction within the energy of our being works in amazing and mysterious ways, we come to realize this unknown "God-thing". For me, it comes down to the realization we are energy within a human form and that energy attracts and repels, simply put, as magnets do.

Because then we begin to realize that everything happens exactly as it's meant to for us to learn something! And only we have to learn our specific "lesson". It's not for anyone other than us. Yes there may be others within any scenario, but "that" is for them and "this" is for US alone.

The brain of all animals, has incredible abilities that play into the unfathomable "perfect order" and perfection of life on earth. And that's about as incomprehensible as infinite space. But ordinary man can begin to appreciate a simple understanding with awareness at varying degrees.

And the more aware we are of our-self (how we say things, what we feel) and relate it to the law of attraction, the closer we come to understanding the greatest mystery to life: is there something greater, more powerful, and about goodness that orchestrates things outside as well as inside us?

We ultimately realize humans have zero control over birth and death, yet we've got to take responsibility for the myriad of things we DO have control over within our-self. Taking full responsibility is essential, and feeling we are somehow victims is absolutely detrimental to viewing life from a higher perspective.

Anyone can view life from a higher perspective. That higher perspective is from the part of self that is the great mystery. You know it when you acknowledge it from truth. You know when you're lie-ing to yourself. There are always going to be "signs" at least your subconscious recognizes! You'll be amazed when you do acknowledge your awareness.

Life is a game of sorts, and when we get into the flow of awareness, life begins to take on a new dimension for our being or our spirit. Listen to your heart, listen to the wisdom in silence, observe as much as possible, and try not to fret about things you ultimately don't control (which is really anything outside yourself).

Keep an openness to mysteries surrounding us, and know we are all one (as far as our blended energies go), and thoughts create energy, and every bit of awareness strengthens the energy of goodness.

Always ~ LL

Day 70 ~

Awareness of self ~ Could anything be more upsetting? I kinda doubt it; at least it hasn't been for me, although it's not something that comes easy. 

Yet it can be the most liberating and wonderful moment in time. Even after the initial pain of a death, because we only have ourselves to be with at moments of awareness of self. We get to see how we've handled our life.

And if we're still striving for "perfect" we are WAAAY off the path, but we know this. Being perfect and being whole are entirely different, someone asked me to clear this up if I can. We all know what perfect is ~ 

At least to me, being whole means having strong moral values; following that awesome golden-rule (think of it as the sun's goodness and the light it shines); being confident you know what you do and do not like (then it makes the golden-rule a "piece-of-cake"); being true to that "self"; giving and receiving unconditional love; and more along those lines.

There are some words within the last paragraph that create challenges along the unique and individual paths we follow. Honestly, life isn't meant to be simple. Yet try to remember it is kind of simple when you realize the ease of "just living". I'm writing from experiences you've no idea of, yet I write with a hard-earned wisdom I do hope helps guide others on their path.

Life becomes a different ballgame when we appreciate the awareness of the spirit or energy we each have. It's extremely difficult to try to convince those that question, but I do believe that "deep-down" within all of us is the wisdom that knows the truth of my words. Is it another dimension of us?

I'm not going to muddy the waters, at least in my pond, stirring it up writing in regards to things I don't have extensive knowledge or understanding of myself. Just having stated, "when something 'dies' it simply changes", is an example of another dimension, because somehow energy remains (in the subconscious mind that many can perceive in their consciousness).

I feel whole, and I know I'm so far away from perfect. I embarrass myself stumbling over others toes "all-the-time". But being my own worse critic, I understand others don't always feel the "errors-in-my-ways" as I do. That helps me continue to rise each morning. 

And being aware, for example, of the awesome connection between my-necessary-life-lessons and the results of my "accident", I'm blown away. Just for an immediate example: my accident left me unstable, uncoordinated and what not; and I "stumble over others feelings" less and less as my awareness grows. Did my spirit have anything to do with me being here?

Yet here I am having literally gone full circle on so many levels, I'd only bore a reader with, but a starting example: accident occurred in Maine, within an hour of here, with my two toddlers in the back seat. 

Years later, we all lived, over a decade, half way around the world, and now my children are reconnected, as adults, with their father and his family, and we All live in the general same area. Our hearts are healing in the proscess. Life is brief, life is a challenge, but life IS fair and life IS good.

And life IS a mystery beyond our human comprehension, and I do question exactly "why ?" these magnificent brains (animals included) "are".

Always ~ LL

Day 68 ~

When we know better, we do better ~ 

Makes absolute sense doesn't it? Sounds fairly simplistic and it is, but this is one of "those things" that IS Not easy! Harder in fact than most of a good portion of our society is afraid to let in so to speak. But do not hesitate to listen ~

What do I mean by "let it in"? Letting it reach our silent-heart's-wisdom: letting the feeling of absolute truth, then, reach our consciousness; "admit" the possibly we may not be as whole as we want (yet): to let our image of our-self step aside if that's the case ~ see?

~ No expectations, and/or stepping aside are essential and simple, yet, again, not easy. Ya gotta first be aware! Then practice what you know. Catch yourself doing better and peaceful happiness does follow ~

And wouldn't ya think so if we're on an awareness adventure on awareness avenue at that!?!

If you don't honestly want to know better, you'll probably just continue along the same path and perhaps never wonder, more deeply, why things aren't working for you  "exactly" the way you want them to. 

And what's meant by working for you? We all know what we ultimately want from life. And I certainly hope it's not money or fame, because those spots, at least should be, reserved for the Gifted that do not question "what's in it for me" financially.

And I feel I can safely say (since I know they don't read this) my siblings offer me a great opportunity to speak in regards to some issues in conjunction with personalities ~ that are quite fine.
 
Their lives are mostly great on the outside, and some are mostly great on the inside, and all question the image and what doesn't work for them, but never the deeper "why" it's not more often. 

Utter peace and unbridled joy remain the carrot the horsey plugs away after.

And I lived through 5 absolute years, with 3 more growing awareness years, of Stubborn Denial. Denial ain't just a river in Egypt ~ 

And that's only half of SSDD: Same shit; different day ~

But one can't hope to make significant change until they're willing to SEE and feel things that aren't working for them the way they'd like. And you won't see it in a book until you're ready.

One, also, cannot be a victim in any regard!! We must accept total responsibility for exactly the life we live today. Remember tomorrow does not have to equal today.

I wanted more than ever to give our mother the gift of her children being comfortable enough with who we've each become to get along without individual past demons, so to speak, arising. 

And the over-use of alcohol only helps create hurt or nasty words that dominate one's spirit and perpetuate habitual denial. But is this about alcohol? Certainly not.

I know plenty of people that do enjoy drinking, myself included, and it's only denial that keeps one in a state of over-use of anything. Examining ourselves makes us susceptible to denial ~

And tomorrow's another day. Sweet dreams ~ 

Always ~ LL

 

Day 64 ~

Awareness is a huge endeavor when we really think about it. It encompasses just about everything when it comes right down to it. But it's the awareness of Magic that enables us to view our lives from an entirely different and freeing perspective; although, nothing relieves us of personal responsibility.

So what is Magic? I can only say it's the invisible energy of life: love, evolution, perfect order and intelligence of nature, our solar system, space, Timing ~ all the things that remain a mystery to mankind, yet somehow exist for the highest good. 
 
When we accept this mystical energy within and around us, we're able to trust visual observations and feelings. These confirm directions of action we should pursue for this brief experience on earth. In my opinion, the combined energy of our beliefs, attitudes, and actions attract situations and people.

And what does that do for us? People reflect aspects of our personality. People and situations enter our lives to somehow teach us something. Yet our freewill determines how truthful, with ourselves, we're willing to be. The stronger you believe this the more you'll realize the brilliance of the law of attraction.


Coincidences that occur can be viewed as simply "a coincidence" and nothing more, or from the acceptance of something greater. Acceptance in conjunction with our freewill allows Magic to flow more readily in our awareness. And with that awareness, can come the feeling of joy at the moment of awareness.
 
We all create our own realities, yet so many of us cannot accept this fact if we cannot accept the law of attraction. Who cannot accept the law of gravity? Like the law of attraction it isn't something we can avoid, and awareness is our gift to do with as we please. A part of being human?

Always ~ LL

Day 46 ~

This will be my last post for at least a couple weeks, while I gather with my siblings to celebrate our mother's 80 years of life. Her wish is to simply spend it with her children. She's been living on what's often called "borrowed-time" for over ten years. Between prescription drugs and Magic she is still with us.

Why do I use Magic? Even though mankind can successfully preform magic, the illusions defy logic. The greatest mystery of my life has been to trust in the unfathomable coincidences that defy logic. For decades I at least had an open mind to the possibility of something, but I was not convinced.

My two children literally saving my life opened my mind enough to accept the possibility of "God". Yes, a logical mind says it did take courage and will. Certainly their father always telling them not to stay, but to go for help in an emergency, helped. But I knew there had to be more.

What gave them the courage? There was only one way out of that car: a hole in the rear window. What force propelled two nearly four and six-year-old children to leave their unresponsive mother and walk through the woods to a relatively isolated house with winter occupants at home?

This may not sound like much beyond coincidence, but it began the quest of a lifetime: to find love; for myself and to appreciate always doing what's in the best interest of all life with unquestioning faith, because everything happens just as it's supposed to to keep us learning until the day we pass.

I was far from being ready to be on the path of knowing what's in the best interest of all concerned in my sphere of influence. Even though I believed there could be a God, it did not matter. I still needed to be convinced and I still had myself and who I was that needed to be faced.

For over twenty-five years I needed lesson after lesson. Did I realize this? Of course not. What's in it for me was always in the back of my mind, even to a degree. Even though my spirit lived, my physical mind and body changed in ways that eventually humbled me to a point of knowing who and what I am.

Whenever I ask myself, "What is this Magic?", it always comes down to hope being given, and only when the time is right. We need to experience what our spirit needs in order to experience the lessons for "our lifetime". All of our lessons are unfathomably connected, and it's not possible to fully reason.

Be observant of everything: whatever you see and hear may be too logic defying, but they somehow manifest in reality to guide us. Have faith things work out exactly as they're meant to for us all to learn who and what we are. Death is a part of being human, and when we realize the spirit only changes, it becomes easier to accept in peace.

Always ~ LL
 

Day 45 ~

Whether or not we choose to believe in a specific God simply doesn't matter, because the basic truth remains the same. My objection is to religions not acknowledging the power of personal-responsibility with awareness of who and what we are.

All the "avenues" to truth such as astrology, jyotish, tarot, whatever (the list is extensive) are simply alternative paths to personal truths. Some are thousands of years older than others. They give mankind knowledge into our spirit and ultimately "what's going on". They are only guides from deeper knowledge.

There is truth to planets and our moon affecting timing to births, and the aspects of the newborn-human with it's potentials and tendencies. If a person or ego is willing to acknowledge that possibility, then and only then does it begin to become clear.

I have never studied one particular avenue in great depth, and I have only elementary knowledge of our solar system, so I'm not even going to profess facts. And I will say the accuracy of truth is astounding at least in regard to myself and my closest family and friends. 

I wrote of separate bubbles of energy infinitely intersecting. Our individual bubble extends to become our sphere of influence. Of course we're conscious of what's closest in our bubble. I believe we are able to positively affect "the whole" the more and more we accept our awareness of self.

Just makes sense doesn't it? Knowing we only have the power to change our own-self gives us tremendous responsibility. And only we can acknowledge what we're willing to see and do. Hey, life's not about being perfect; life is about being a whole individual doing the best they know how.

The energy on our planet continually shifts with the combined energies of freewill and the unfathomably organized timing of the universe we live within. And I know people are waking-up as frustration intensifies. Teaching the next generation to believe in individual freewill blended with timing can only strengthen an evolution towards good for the whole of life.

Enjoy, continue to catch yourself doing "better" and happiness follows close behind to soon catch up for us to walk in peace, love, and joy.

Always ~ LL